Dealing With a Breakup

Do you ever get that feeling that everything is perfect and nothing can stop you? Well, that's how I felt until I found out the most heart-crushing news. The perfect guy, made me laugh, made me feel so comfortable and I gave him all of my trust just for him to throw it back in my face. Thoughts that cross my mind:

• Should I have been more demanding?
• Was I too trusting?
• Did I let him see his friends too much?
• Should I have made even more effort?

And that's just a few that circle around my mind daily. After a while, I realise that I gave everything and nothing was my fault. Shit happens, life goes on. Time to pick myself up and focus on me, myself and I.

It's come to the point in my life where I'm happy and stable. I have a degree, a full time job, a very nice Help To Buy ISA and great friends and family. So I definitely was not going to let the actions of someone else hinder me. At the end of the day, I've always been my own person and after previous relationships I promised myself that if I did meet someone and fall in love, I'd keep doing things for me. However, when you're with someone for a long time, you'd do anything for them. When you're in a long term relationship, you don't expect the worst. I guess I got too comfortable.

Old single Hannah was so confident and carefree, nothing could stop her. It's been such a long time since I was single and now I'm just stuck in limbo. I don't want to go out 'on the pull' and meet boys in bars. Realistically, the man of my dreams is not making his way down Wind Street every Saturday night neither will I find him down Chippy Lane at 3am. Thankfully, I know my worth.

So for now, I've rejoined Tinder and created a Bumble account - hoping that this may get my confidence back up and running. I've also started to exercise more and drinking less alcohol on the weekend. I'm bored of going out and spending my paycheck in the pub. Making plans with my girls for cocktails in the 'Diff sounds so much better than a night out at my regular with the same faces surrounding me. I'm posting the fire selfies, I'm learning to flirt again and sooner or later Hannah will be back with a vengeance. Stay tuned...